Tuesday, January 11, 2005

the happiest day of my life

*writing this in hindsight*

after 3 loooooong months on hospital bedrest, today is the day. i woke up this morning with no idea today was the day. i had my early morning wake up by one of the residents and answered all of the blah blah blah questions. after eating my yucky breakfast, i turned my attention to tv and braced myself for another long day. i was wearing a pair of yellow pj's with cherries all over them that my mom had sent to me. after my first round of monitoring, dr. al-khoutly comes in to check on me. she looked at me symapthetically and said, "you are very uncomfortable aren't you?", of course my answer was yes. not even 30 minutes later she was back to alert me to call my my husband chris, today was the day! a few hours later nurses were in and out of my room moving my decor(i literally lived there) to my new post-pardum room. the whole situation was so sureal. i had prayed, pleaded, and begged for this day and finally it was here. i suddenly was so scared and wanted to get dressed and make a run for it. i wonder if anyone would notice? no one would pay any attention to a woman resembling shrek walking down the street in a hospital gown would they? i seriously considered it...

after a couple of hours in triage, i was wheeled in to the o.r where there would soon be a crowd of more than 15 people. the whole process was so quick and such a blur from that point. i remember pulling my oxygen mask off because i felt like it was suffocating me, i remember them rocking my body back and forth, i can remember the look on chris' face, and then....

the sweet sound of my little angels first cries. what a moment. to see each one come in to the world and hear their cries...nothing can describe this moment. i remember EXACTLY what each one looked like and how they sounded, that memeory is forever.

thank you dearly to God for this tremendous blessing...i often wonder why he chose me? i never felt deserving of such an amazing blessing, but i am flattered. thank you dearly to all of my friends & family who helped me get through such a trying time in the hospital. thank you to dearly to all of the wonderful nurses and dr. al-khoutly who helped me to get my precious angels here safely. and last but not least, thank you dearly to my husband who was there by my side day and night & still somehow managed to function at work and remodel our home while i was in the hospital....you are a rockstar.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Your children are beautiful. How many weeks were you when you delivered? They look like they are a nice weight